I must be in a reflective mood today. Maybe its our weather here. Fall has arrived and the trees are colored in reds, golds, and yellows. The air is crisp and the sky is that particular blue shade that happens in fall. I began to think of questions that should be asked and answered at this time of my life. So I decided to share a few.
For me, it’s bitterness and anger. That should be left in the past. My future has no place for it. It drains my energy and dulls my thought process. So for all who have hurt me in the past, I forgive you. I will no longer be bitter. I give that up as a time-consuming and fruitless endeavor.
No one can steal my memories. No one can steal my hopes and my dreams. I won’t let them. I’ve done that in the past, but refuse to do it now or in the future.
I will always believe in myself. The love I have for people and the love I have for animals. I will always believe in the possibility of dreams and hope. I will always believe in the good of people as a whole and the understanding of passion.
I desire happiness, contentment and the pursuit of my dreams. I desire people to just believe that even though there are differences among us that we are all the same underneath. We have a heart, a brain, and the ability to be compassionate to each other.
My defense is positivity. I’m the eternal optimist, I strongly believe in the power of positive thinking. I’ve used it through out my life and it has done some amazing things. I don’t like negative people, they tend to drag me down too much. When I was in my early 30’s I had almost 2 years of being constantly depressed. I was so far down into that black hole that I never left the house. I couldn’t. It was impossible for me to. I couldn’t even make myself go to the mailbox. I lived in a constant dark environment. I even at one time contemplated suicide. On that day something happened that changed my life, and my way of thinking. That’s when I became an optimist. I started thinking only positive thoughts and my life has never been dark again. I refuse to go down that black hole for anyone or anything.
The first thing my child would say is “We made it!!”. Because there was a few times it was doubtful. Then my child that I was would think that I did an amazing job becoming the adult I am. There were plenty of obstacles and trials. But the child in me would be proud.
What I look forward to everyday is just living. Plain and simple……….LIVING!