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Daily Prompt: Back to the Future

Daily Prompt: Back to the Future

Anachronism (noun): an error in chronology; a person or thing that’s chronologically out of place. Write a story in which a person or thing is out of place, or recount a time when you felt out of place.

 

 

Recount a time when I felt out-of-place? That would be a long list! A much shorter version would be to recount a time when I felt in place. I’ve always been the odd one out. In my family, in social situations, in school, in life, always just a bit out of step.

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First I have always felt I was born in the wrong era. I just never fitted in. I’m not really sure what era I belong to, possibly the future. From the looks of things today, wayyyyyy into the future! Where women were not persecuted for having a mind and using it. Where women really were equal to men. Where being a woman, or being of another color made absolutely no difference in how people perceived you or held you back in whatever you wanted to do in life.

Growing up I always felt different. Never in tune with the rest of the family. I preferred to read, write, draw. Anything but socialize. I never had many friends, I was never with the ‘in’ crowd. I was always a loner. I preferred it that way. More time than not I could be found in my bedroom reading or listening to music. Alone.

Charles Louis Lucien Muller (1815 – 1892, French)
Charles Louis Lucien Muller (1815 – 1892, French)

I’m never more happy than when I’m alone. I’ve often thought I could become a hermit really easy. Just give me a room with lots of books and an  iPod with lots of my favorite music and I’m content.  Most of my socializing is over the internet. I’ve met some really great people on here. That’s enough for me.

I hate parties or anything to do with lots of people. I hate crowds, whether I know the people or they are complete strangers. Yet I love to people watch. Kind of a contradiction right? Let me sit in a corner by myself and I could people watch all day.

I often wonder what motivates people to do the stuff they do. Good or bad. Peoples minds fascinate me. People’s motivations always suspect. See, I’m a bit of a cynic too. I’ve seen a lot in this life, been through a lot in this life. I will most likely go through much more before I die. Well, I hope so anyway, as I’m not quite ready to die.

So here I sit, alone, yet not lonely. Wondering how I fit in a world that is so chaotic when all I want is peace. Yeah, I’m out-of-place and that’s just fine with me.