Posted in Blogging, Mi Vida Loca, nonfiction

63 Things I’ve Learned in 63 Years

Hello everyone! Yes, I know it’s been a very long time since I posted anything. Since early March, actually. Why? Because life sometimes has a way of making me so tired. Things have straightened out a bit since then. I’m at a new ‘normal’ around here.

Quick catch up, then I’ll get to this new post. Most of you will remember the health problems of the husband in the past few years. First colon cancer, got that beat as he is now officially three years cancer free! Then he had a stroke in late October of last year. He’s still getting over that one. There have been a few stays in the hospital for pneumonia here and there but he seems to be stable now. Thank goodness. Time to breath!

Life can be hard but I keep plodding along. As for me, I’ve had a terrible bout of insomnia since May. So yeah, I get kind of tired.

I’m back now. I do hope to stick around too. I don’t know how often I will post, I’m going to try for once a week and go from there. As to what I will post? Who the hell knows. We’ll see what happens.

Now, the reason for this post. Today is my birthday! Yeah, ok, keep the cheering down. I’m sixty-three today. Shit, that seems like such a big number! I hope to see sixty-four. My body feels like it’s ninety-three while my mind feels twenty-three yet. I’m young at heart people with an old woman’s outlook. Ha!

Anyway, my friend Mer had her 44th birthday last month and she came up with a post with 44 things she learned in her 44 years. So, thanks Mer, I’m stealing your idea!

Let’s get this party started!

63 Things I’ve Learned in 63 Years

  1. No matter how broke you are….treat yourself sometimes
  2. Age is a state of mind, not a number
  3. A pet can save your sanity
  4. Never just settle for a life partner, you won’t be happy and neither will they
  5. Accept yourself….no other opinion means more
  6. Drink lots of water
  7. Life is going to throw you some curve balls….Learn to go with it, it all works out in the end
  8. Getting hurt is part of life
  9. Don’t trust someone your dog doesn’t like!
  10. Life is damn short—-Live it!
  11. Don’t hold grudges
  12. If you have a life partner always have some of your own money tucked away, have your own bank account
  13. If there is something you’ve always wanted to do….Do it! (Unless it hurts you or someone else)
  14. Don’t be afraid to have your own ideas or beliefs, you don’t need to be the same as everyone else
  15. Don’t be afraid of growing older, some of it sucks but some of its great.
  16. It’s necessary for your wellbeing to say NO sometimes
  17. Trust your gut instinct
  18. Don’t do something or be someone to just please the family. They don’t live your life. You do!
  19. If someone lies to you…..they will keep lying to you
  20. Don’t be peer pressured or family pressured into having kids. If you don’t want them, don’t have them. The world will do just fine.
  21. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Same goes for a spouse abuser. They won’t change no matter how much you think they will.
  22. Act silly sometimes
  23. You can’t herd cats very well
  24. Always carry extra undies in your purse when traveling. (sorry guys, don’t know what you would do) That way when your luggage is lost you have clean undies for the next day. No one wants to put on the same undies two days in a row.
  25. Also, when traveling keep extra cash on your person.
  26. If you’re on a diet, don’t burn vanilla scented candles
  27. Coffee is the worlds apology for making you get out of bed
  28. Whoever decided grocery shopping online and delivery service was a good thing should be given an award! I love it!
  29. Music really does soothe the soul
  30. Be impulsive sometimes, it can lead to wonderful things
  31. Tell the people who you love that you do love them. It might be the last chance you get
  32. You don’t need a lot of friends
  33. What friends you do have, let them know you appreciate them
  34. Always use a grammar and spell check when writing…..saves some embarrassment
  35. Read different things, even if you don’t think you will like the genre, sometimes you will be pleasantly surprised
  36. Keep a positive attitude, it will bring about positive things in your life
  37. You don’t need to be religious to be a good person
  38. Swearing is not unladylike
  39. Sometimes have a resting bitch face saves you from having to actually BE a bitch
  40. There is nothing wrong with eating your favorite comfort food sometimes
  41. I love my attitude
  42. No matter how much advice you can give a person, they will only take what they think they need and not what they actually need
  43. People usually don’t want that advice anyway, they just want to vent
  44. I’ve learned that being unhappy with my life at times was my own fault and only I could change it
  45. I’m fascinated by dragonflies
  46. I still believe in that Christmas magic can happen
  47. I have a young child’s awe of Mother Nature
  48. I’ve learned that being the ‘quiet one’ is not a personality flaw
  49. I’ve come to accept that I will never be thin and that’s ok with me
  50. I know now that my happiness lies in me, not someone or something else
  51. Making a list this long is damn hard!
  52. I love challenging my mind. I think that’s what keeps me young
  53. I prefer silence over noise or talking
  54. You can learn a lot about someone just by observing them
  55. I don’t forgive easily
  56. I never forget either
  57. People are generally nice given a chance
  58. There are always exceptions to the rule
  59. I still prefer animals over people
  60. Trying to win approval from my mother was a lifelong difficulty and never truly achieved
  61. I’m hard to love but worth the effort
  62. If you were looking for deep, inspirational things from me you probably didn’t get it ….hahahaha
  63. Maybe next year I will be wiser….I’ll be older, so there is that small chance

 

Don’t count on it!

 

 

 

 

Posted in Blogging, nonfiction

A Passing of a Wonderful Lady ~~ Kimberly Wilhelmina Floria

I’m so sad and sorry to find out just minutes ago that our writing friend and blogger Kim Floria of Silentlyheardonce has died. I don’t know all the details as of yet but I do know she had been in the hospital for quite a while as her lung cancer came back and I believe it spread.

Kim was a great writer and an overall nice person. I feel such sadness at her passing. I called her friend as she always had something nice to say and a way of departing wisdom. If any of you fellow bloggers know if you knew her.

She will be sadly missed here in my blogging world.

RIP Kim.

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca, questions and answers

Share Your World ~~~ Oct. 9, 2017

Hello everyone! I hope that those of you who celebrated Canada’s Thanksgiving yesterday had a good one.

 

Here are this week’s questions and my answers from Cee’s Share Your World.…….

What do you consider is the most perfect food for you? (It can be your favorite food to something extremely healthy.)

Hands down it has to be peanut butter. I love creamy peanut butter. It’s also the food I mostly lived on after my divorce many years ago. It was all I could afford at the time. A jar of peanut butter and a loaf of bread was my way of surviving. Now I use it as a way of upping my sugars if my blood sugars get too low (I’m diabetic). But, it’s also comforting. The smell, the taste just brings me comfort when I’m down.

Are you focused on today or tomorrow?

Both, I think. I’m always in the ‘now’ but I can obsess about the tomorrows. Especially now that I’m older. I think about tomorrow a lot. Sometimes it gets a bit scary and I have to put it out of my mind and concentrate on today.

If you could interview one of your great-great-great grandparents, who would it be (if you know their name) and what would you ask?

I barely knew my grandparents, much less great-great-great ones. I think I would love to interview the ones on my mother’s side of the family. They were Native Americans and I would love to have their ‘take’ on things back then. My Native American ancestry has always interested me the most. As for what I would ask them, most likely just let them tell me about how life was back then, the changes that came later and general life experiences.

 

 

Do you know about your ancestors? Let me know!

 

 

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca, questions and answers

Share Your World ~~~ August 28, 2017

Sending lots of love and light to Texans who have been hit by the hurricane. May you all stay safe.

Cee is back from her mini vacation so here is this week’s edition of Share Your World. 

What would constitute a “perfect” day for you?

A day with no pain….of course that would probably mean I died, so let’s skip that, shall we?

Ok, instead let’s go with a rainy day that I can snuggle down with a hot cup of coffee and listen to the drops hitting the roof. Quiet, peaceful and stress-free. Ahhhhhh. No TV blaring, no one talking, just being in the moment.

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Complete this sentence: My favorite place in the whole world…..

Is in a home in the woods. Where the deer scamper and bees buzz, butterflies float with the breeze. Quiet and peaceful and full of nature. With a small lake full of jumping fish and playful dragonflies skimming the water. I know this place exists somewhere. I’ve been to places that were close to this perfection. I’m willing to go and test out places to fit my preferences.

Who was your best friend in elementary school (prior to age 12)?

Gloria Holt. She was a distant relative I found out later. We went to grade school together and were best friends for years. Unfortunately, she came to a bad end I found out later. We drifted apart when we moved out of the neighborhood and I saw here years later on a bus of all things. I’m not sure she recognized me but I sure recognized her. She was working the streets back then, hooked on drugs after being sexually abused as a kid. I never knew she was being abused as she didn’t know I was. We never discussed it. I thought it was just so heartbreaking for her to deal that way with the abuse. Could have easily been me, I suppose. I just choose not to go down that destructive road.

What inspired you this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

People might fuss, fight and feud but when the times get tough they do work together for the greater good. People in Texas are known for standing up for their convictions, whether good or bad and fighting for them. But when the hurricane caused so much damage they came together as a united people to help others. THAT is what keeps my faith in humanity.

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca, questions and answers

Share Your World ~~~ June 26, 2017

It’s Tuesday here so it must mean it’s time for Monday’s Cee’s Share your world! A bit twisted I know but that’s me!

Here we go:

What goal are you working on now? Your goal can be something fun or extremely serious.  Have fun with this question.

I always have several goals going on at any given time. Nothing like spreading myself out. First, to get healthy, which seems to be a lot of people’s goals. Second to finish writing my two or three books I have in various stages of completion. Then going on to write several more. Then there is my goal to become filthy rich. Yeah, I’m always working on that one but seem to keep getting further behind with it. Of course, that would mean I need to be ambitious and driving in my goal to become filthy rich. Eh, maybe tomorrow.

What is one thing you’re glad you tried but would never do again?

After my first divorce, I would have said marriage. Yet, here I am, married again. Will I never learn?

I tried flying a kite once because several people have told me to “go fly a kite”. It got stuck in a tree. So, I never tried again.

I tried perming my hair once when I was a kid. Disaster! Never tried that again.

I even tried decaffeinated coffee once on my doctor’s advice. Oh. My. God. Never again! Talk about nasty!

Did you choose your profession or did it choose you?

Well, it depends on your definition of ‘profession’. If it means I’m a Jack of all trades and master of none, then yup that’s what I chose! I never had the same job twice. I’ve been many things in my life, secretary (as Cee would say, “for people old enough to remember what that was”, Antique restorer and dealer, carpet cleaner, Personal Assistant (a glorified secretary really), retail clerk, casino worker, personal aide. Just to name a few that I remember. I like variety.

Have you ever gotten lost?

I don’t get lost! I have mini adventures. LOL

So in short, yes, I’ve gotten lost. I’m terrible with directions. One time I got lost between Fort Worth and Dallas. Now everyone knows Fort Worth-Dallas area is huge. I mean it’s traffic is horrendous. I got so lost I almost ended up in Oklahoma……running out of gas…..with no money. Yeah, that was NOT a fun time. I did manage to get back to where I needed to be but with a raging headache and a vow never to drive in Dallas alone again.

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca, questions and answers

Share Your World ~~~ June 19, 2017

Once again here I am with Cee’s Share Your World! Did you miss me? 😉

This week’s questions are:

What is something that people are obsessed with but you just don’t get the point of?

Selfies. Really. Do you not remember what you look like? If so just look in a mirror! Good grief.

What quirky things do people do where you are from?

Hm, I’m FROM Wisconsin but now live in Canada so which place to choose? Actually, Wisconsin and the part of Canada I’m living in now is not that much different. The people are nice. They drink beer a lot. They love cheese. There are a bunch of rednecks. They love their pickup trucks. They all think any weather over 35 degrees is shorts time.  As for quirky? Hell if I know. Maybe I’m the quirky one. LOL

 

What are some things you wish you could unlearn? 

Not to criticize myself so much. I learned how to do this at a very young age as people around me were always quick to criticize.

Who is someone that you miss having in your life?

My mom and dad mostly. They weren’t perfect but I loved them and I miss them every day. Also, my Aunt Nene. I haven’t heard from her in years and suspect she passed away. I may have to do some research to find out for sure. She would be in her 80’s now. She was my favorite relative.

 

 

 

There you have it. See you next week unless you hear from me sooner.

 

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca

Share Your World ~~~ May 22, 2017

Time for Cee’s Share Your World! It’s easy to join us every week. Just click on the link and read how.

 

What is one thing have you not done that you really want to do? 

There are lots of things I haven’t done that I wish I could. But either money or age is in the way. Like, travel to Europe and England and Australia. Go on a hot air balloon ride or a helicopter ride. Visit my online friends. Alas, not going to happen I’m afraid.

How often do you get a haircut?

About once every ten years or so. That’s how it’s worked out anyway. Last time I had it cut was about ten years ago. The time before that…..about the same. I don’t like myself in short hair, rarely have the money for a professional cut and don’t trust anyone to cut it so that it doesn’t look like hell. I trim it myself when I need to. I always have it up in a ponytail. I’m just one of those long-haired hippy women.

In regards to puzzle what’s your choice: jigsaw, crossword, word search or numeric puzzles?

Crossword or word search is my preference. I hate anything to do with numbers. Numbers hate me or should I say my brain hates numbers. I mean, I’ve done them so I CAN do them. I just don’t care for number puzzles.

How many cities have you lived? You can share the number of physical residences and/or the number of cities.

Wow, ask me the hard one. I probably forgot some but I will say close to…..10 or 12. Around there as much as I can remember. I’ve lived in Wisconsin, Mississippi, Texas, back to Wisconsin and then Canada. So yeah, quite a few. Most of the cities are in Texas with the ex. He had a bad problem of not paying the bills and then we would move, most times to a whole new town or city. I’m surprised he still lives in Texas as most places have people looking for him. ha!

 

 

Hope your weekend was a good one and that this week is going great!

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca

Share Your World ~~~ May 8, 2017

Hello, People!

I do hope your weekend was a good one. As for me, well, I’ve been sick on and off for the past few weeks. Stomach problems. You can usually tell when I’m not feeling well because I post less and less on my blog.

When I don’t feel well physically it does something to my brain as well. I can’t concentrate to write. Hopefully, this ailment won’t last long. I don’t make a good patient, even for myself. The doctor prescribed some pills for me and sometimes they even work but not always. I find I can eat very little and what I do eat makes my stomach upset. It’s very frustrating.

Anyway, I’ve changed my diet all around and I shall see if that works to settle my stomach. If not. Back to the doctors. Maybe. I’m beginning to have very little faith in doctors lately. They just want to push pills to cover the symptoms but not to find the root cause of the problem. Ugh. I’ll get it figured out eventually.

I would say ‘enough about me’ but this post is all about me! Ha! Let’s get to answering Cee’s Share Your World questions for this week, shall we?

 

When you’re alone at home, do you wear shoes, socks, slippers, or go barefoot?

I wear slippers. Even if I’m not alone at home. 😉 I almost never wear socks. I don’t like them. Shoes are for when I leave the house. Here at home, slippers all the time. When I was younger I went barefoot almost all the time. Now that I’ve become diabetic, I wear slippers as diabetics need to keep their feet in tip-top shape.

What was your favorite food when you were a child?

The only thing I can remember really looking forward to eating was my dad’s chili. He used to make the best chili and I loved it. We very rarely got dessert when we were kids but sometimes my mom would make baked apples. Yum! Those were my favorites as sweets.

Are you a listener or talker?

A listener. Always. I don’t talk that much, especially at gatherings. I’m the one you will find in a corner watching everyone until I can manage to get away. I have always found that I learn so many more things by just listening than by talking. People forget I’m around and talk freely. I’ve found out some very interesting things that way.

Favorite thing to (pick one):  Photograph?  Write? Or Cook?

It has to be to write. I love to write stories and flash fiction. I just love to write as anyone who really knows me knows. I’ve always been that way. I used to love to cook but as I grow older I find cooking to be highly overrated. LOL

 

 

 

That my friends ends another scintillating session on me. Oh, one more thing. If I haven’t answered your comments recently, I apologize. It seems WordPress is being difficult. Your comments aren’t always showing up and when they finally do I can’t seem to answer them from the drop down box on the upper right side. I have to go directly to the post and answer them. So I haven’t been ignoring you, it just takes time to track you down. Sorry.

 

 

 

Posted in poetry, postaday, writing

Hidden Pain ~~~ A Poem

Hidden Pain

 

She looks but doesn’t see

the hurt she dishes out with words

careless words spoken without thought

she doesn’t care

 

He agrees to everything

the anger stays hidden deep inside

words are not spoken for hours, days, weeks, years

Yet, he doesn’t miss the hurt the child receives

 

The small heart is broken, shattered, torn

words spoken so carelessly taken so far deep inside

tears fall silently, never seen by the woman who caused them

never-failing to try to make her change her mind

 

A woman hurting, even after a lifetime

wondering again as the hurt resurfaces countless times

tears falling inside to wet the damaged soul

asking the same old question that never got answered

 

Why did she dislike me so?

 

 

 

 

Posted in Cee's Share Your World, Mi Vida Loca, nonfiction

Share Your World ~~ Feb. 13, 2017

I did a post last week with a poll. I wanted to know what you wanted to see more of on my blog. As my readers, I want you to keep coming back to visit me.

I had a few answer the poll and the results are in! The biggest vote was you wanted more personal posts. More about me. Well, lucky you, I can accommodate you with the help of Cee’s weekly Share Your World questions. Thanks, Cee!

Also, it seems my readers want more short stories. Or a weekly series of the same ongoing story. I will see what I can do to fill that request also. Stay tuned for more short and flash fiction!

Thank you to all that voted and now let’s get it moving with some personal questions courtesy of Cee……..

 

Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

Out. I used to sleep with them tucked in but now I need the sheets tucked out. Ever since I became diabetic I can’t stand anything holding my feet down, like sheets. So none of my blankets or sheets are tucked in.

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Have you stolen a street sign before?

Almost. When I was married to the ex we once stopped and tried to steal a street sign. I think because it had our last name on it. He couldn’t get it off the pole so I convinced him to leave it. I would have felt guilty if we had gotten away with it, so glad we didn’t.

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Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

I used to use coupons a lot. Now, no. The place I shop at has weekly sales and I buy a lot of generic brands so usually the coupons I find I wouldn’t use as they wouldn’t help me save money.

 

Do you have freckles?

No, I don’t. I’ve been genetically blessed with clear nice skin. My siblings not so much…… I never got much acne and never had freckles.

 

 

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Posted in His Days (about the husband), Humor, Mi Vida Loca, Wednesday Whatever!

Wednesday Whatever! Jan. 11, 2017

I’m going to tell you a true story. It’s a bit funny, a little sad, and a slice of my life as it is now.

It deals with the husband. Many of you know of him. I write about him sometimes. He’s had his share of hard times the last few years. Debilitating back pain, colon cancer and all that comes with battling that. Now we find out he has cataracts, in both eyes.

He is dealing with it all like a trooper. The man is strong in many ways.

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But…..sometimes our life is like a comic skit. A dark one, maybe, but a bit of dark humor never hurt anyone.

It happened one day last week. The morning started well enough. I mean, I managed to get up out of bed. I always figure that’s a good start to any day. I have a routine in the mornings. It helps to have a routine when you are still half asleep and need to do certain things first thing in the mornings.

I dole out the husband’s daily pills. So, I count out his pills and walk out to the living room where he is still sleeping. I put his pills in his daily pill container and still half asleep go to make my first, much-needed cup of coffee. Didn’t really look at the husband as he was buried under his blankets. Usual morning.

I grab my cup of coffee and head down the hallway to my home office. After firing up my computer I do what I normally do every day. I check out WordPress, briefly bring up Facebook, and then go into my emails. Same old, same old.

About an hour later I finally hear the husband’s shuffling feet coming down the hallway to his bathroom. Again, same old stuff. A few minutes later I hear him coming towards me. Probably just to say good morning. Ok. No problem.

He stops in the doorway, as our two fat cats have decided to lay in the open doorway and believe me, you can’t walk over both of them. They take up too much room. He stands there and starts talking to me. I only listen with half an ear because…well, I only had one cup of coffee and I’m reading….and well, ok, sometimes I’m a terrible wife.

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I glance over at him briefly when he asks me a question. Just a quick look. Then I do a double take. I sit back in my chair, grab my glasses to put on for a better look…..and ask him….What the hell did you do to your face!?

His face ….. it was cherry red with what suspiciously looked like hives! It looked terrible. I mean, really, it looked like it should hurt like hell.

This is pretty close to how our conversation went……..

“What the hell happened to your face?”

” Why?” (Rubs his face and grimaces)

“It’s red! And terrible looking! I also think you have hives!”

(Rubs his face again and looks at his hand) “Really? Must be from that cream you gave me.”

“I didn’t give you any cream.”

“Yes, you did.”

“Nope, I didn’t. So what cream are we talking about?”

“The cream you gave me. It was on my shelf.” (He has a shelf next to his bed where he keeps all his stuff.)

“I didn’t give you any cream!”

“You must have. Why would I have it then?”

“Why would I give you cream? I would remember if I gave you any cream and I don’t so I didn’t.”

“Then, why do I have it?”

Well, I had to admit that one had me stumped. So I get out of my nice warm, comfy office chair and say……

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“Show me this cream.”

We both shuffle back down the hallway to the living room where his bed and shelf are. And where this baffling, notorious, cream is. He digs around his shelf and triumphantly hands me this small tube that I swear I have never seen in my life!

As I’m trying to read the small print on this small tube I hear him say…..

“See! You gave me this moisturizing cream, so I used it last night on my face because my face felt dry.”

“I have never seen this tube before.” I murmur as I try to read the small print. When I read what it says I start to laugh.

“This isn’t moisturizing cream…..it’s shower gel.”

“Then why did you give it to me?”

“I didn’t give it to you! I would remember and I don’t, so I didn’t give it to you!”

“Then why do I have it?”

I just sigh and look at his poor face. I don’t know why he has it. It’s not something I would ever buy.

“Did you not read the tube before you used it?”

“I couldn’t make out what it said. I just assumed since you gave it to me that it was moisturizing cream. So I used it all over my face in the middle of the night and then went back to sleep.”

“Well, it’s shower gel. A cheap gel and obviously you are allergic to it.”

He uses his forefinger to scratch at a hive.

“Don’t scratch it! Go splash some warm water over your face to make sure the gel is all off. Don’t rub your face dry, pat it dry. You don’t want to irritate those hives.”

“Why would you give me shower gel?”

I grit my teeth and say, “I. Didn’t. Give. It. To. You.”

He goes slowly towards his bathroom, mumbling….”Well, I don’t know who else would give it to me. Had to be you.”

I just shake my head, throw the tube in the trash and give up the battle. We could go on for hours.

I get him a Benadryl for the itching and send him to the pharmacist to see if they had anything for the hives. They tell him just to keep taking the Benadryl and to use a cream they sold him for the itching.

He was miserable for a couple of days. I still don’t know where the cream came from. I have my suspicions but I gave up that particular battle. I did tell him to please…PLEASE….show me anything he wants to use or take before he does so I know it’s ok.

Welcome to my world……..

 

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Posted in My Incomplete List of Small Pleasures, nonfiction, postaday

My Incomplete List of Small Pleasures ~~ Dec. 15, 2016

I have to admit to feeling a bit blue lately. Ok, a lot. I do get melancholy sometimes. I think we all do.

For the past month or more, it’s been more than melancholy for me. Like many people I usually get a bit down this time of year. A bit sad, a bit reflective. My mood has been even more than that. It borders on depression.

I had depression years ago. I mean I was down that dark, deep hole of blackness so far I thought I would never crawl out.

I did crawl out, though. It took me several years, a divorce and suicidal thoughts (not necessarily in that order)….but I did it. I crawled out and never crawled back in. I’ve been close to the brink of that hole a few times. I always caught myself before I fell in.

Many people see me as a strong woman. I don’t consider myself strong. I consider myself a survivor. Plain and simple. I survived my abusive childhood. I survived a rotten first marriage to a man bent on destroying me. I survived several attempts on my life. I survived….I survive…..I am a survivor.

But, am I strong? I don’t know. Most days I don’t think so. I certainly don’t feel it.

So today, I felt the need to write down some things I’m grateful for. Something for my soul to hold on to. Something to help this emotional cripple to keep waking up every morning. I find it helps…..sometimes.

I will not fall down that black hole.

 

The Incomplete

 

Friends. They make me smile even when I don’t feel like it. They make me think with the words that they write. They make me feel like maybe….just maybe….I’m not alone after all.

My dog Sam. He cuddles with me every night. He helps me feel like I mean something to someone, even if it’s just a small 8lb dog. Most days he’s the only other living thing that ever physically touches me.

Distractions. Books, blogs, writing, things that make me come out of my shell and look at things differently. Sometimes it helps to have a different perspective.

Optimism. Even though I’ve been staring at that deep, dark hole lately, in my heart there beats my optimism. I will be ok. Things will be ok. My life can change on a whim. It has before, it will again. Usually for the better. All things are temporary.

The holiday season. Even though I tend to get a bit down this time of year, my heart sings at all the good things that usually come out of this holiday season. The cheerful lights. The jolly Santa’s. The ever-present snowmen. The feeling in the air that things might….just might….improve. Human nature’s spirit is unquenchable. Even if this past year has been damn hard for many reasons for many people we as humans keep trying to move forward to make this a better place. The bigger the obstacles the more determined we are to overcome them.

 

So make your own list of small pleasures, even if it’s just in your own head and heart. It still makes a difference.

 

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